this shall be the post for today (200109) as i cant get to sleep. Why waste the golden opportunity? It's going to be a long post! Been catching up on herrizal lately on our plans. Plans on retaking certain subjects as a private O while doing poly. Also our gym plan. I'll talk about it later. I know it's gonna be tough juggling Os and poly activities but as long as you're hungry for success, you dont mind right? At the end of the day, its a good cert that satisfies people. So we are working our way out for this. Although sometimes the path may not be straight for success like in my case, i will still do it. It's ok if you readers look down on me. I dont mind or even be bothered with it. My mindset has been set and no one can mend it. I will still persevere and endure in the 1st year.
Sometimes i do wonder why all bad things have to happen to me and not anyone in my family? Is it karma? Dont think so. I've not offended or bad-mouth people (if im not wrong). It always has to be me. If it's lazyness, it is still no. Cause through my 5 years of sec sch, i have pledged to do exceptionally well and proved it with my actions despite the hurdles i faced along the journey to success. Others in my family went to express stream upon completion of PSLE and im the only one so far (and maybe the only one) that went to N.A stream. Others took a straight path (4 years sec sch) to success but i? have to turn left and right . That also does not proved to be good. For the case of O lvl, i did a left turned (took a year to do it) and it did not met my expectation still. Instead, it was like a barely-passed O lvl kind of thing. Some thing which im totally not proud of. As for my N lvls, i did well. Sometimes this is life. Shit do happens. There is no straight path to success. Only a handful of us can have this dont-worry-attitude of success. Cause they go the straight path and still excel. I envy them seriously. As i typed this, tears began rolling down my cheeks. Maybe it touched me real bad. What is it in me that lacks? May i know? Or is there a reason behind all my long-taken path? Which will shine its light later? But i need to know it now! I've had enough of all this nonsense. Why am i not born with the brain of a genius or somewhere close along that line? WHY?! Why make me suffer terribly now whereas the others are happily enjoying their life at the same age as i do? When can i have this kind of life back? Im yearning for it. Given my family status, i am happy. I got the things i want and so on. Thanks to my dad. But we are not those loaded people and never wish to be. But if it happens, im grateful for that. As long as im leaving here, i treat myself as the average joe. Why flaw yourself to others with wealth? Its not necessary. Always be low-key with everyone around you. You may never know who whould be better off than you. It really breaks my heart to see friends enjoying their life while im down here struggling with education life. Please put a stop to it. Seriously. You see me in person at school as the happy-go-lucky type but deep down im suffering. No one knows. I dont post this up for sympathy from all. This is my blog and i have the right to pour out any unhappiness. Read it you wish to know more about me. Simply cross the red X at the top right.
Later i and herrizal will be heading down to school for talk. We were cordially invited by mr lim to give talk to the sec 5. I am honoured to do that. So certificate and good grades does not guarantee everything i guess? It's the individual attitude and how you present yourself infront of others that counts. Still, not to forget those friends support and wishes for me. thanks a ton. =D
As for the 2nd half, about my gym plan. This is it. Given my free time now, i rather do something useful to myself than stoning infront of the computer for hours. So here's the plan. Me and herrizal will be hitting the gym often comes this wednesday onwards. It is 4x a week. Monday, wednesday, friday and sunday. Each session last for 2 hours. It would be at gombak stadium as there is a direct transport from here. Save on transportation cost as im jobless, so finance is kinda tight for myself. Dad never give me allowance already. Im all by myself now. I dont mind. Here is the routine. Monday would be all-hand exercise (bicep, tricep, wrist). Wednesday would be leg (calf, groin, hamstring). Friday would be front body (chest, abs). Sunday would be shoulder (deltoid, shoulder) and back muscle (wings). I give myself 5 months to see the transformation. Hopefully this time round it works as i have consulted professionals. haha. Lets all hope to see the haaziq from skinny-scrawny to beef-up muscular guy. Maybe 5 months is too short, extend it to 12 months! =D. The gruelling training starts this Wednesday and im game for it! This is the timetable for work out.
Sometimes i do wonder why all bad things have to happen to me and not anyone in my family? Is it karma? Dont think so. I've not offended or bad-mouth people (if im not wrong). It always has to be me. If it's lazyness, it is still no. Cause through my 5 years of sec sch, i have pledged to do exceptionally well and proved it with my actions despite the hurdles i faced along the journey to success. Others in my family went to express stream upon completion of PSLE and im the only one so far (and maybe the only one) that went to N.A stream. Others took a straight path (4 years sec sch) to success but i? have to turn left and right . That also does not proved to be good. For the case of O lvl, i did a left turned (took a year to do it) and it did not met my expectation still. Instead, it was like a barely-passed O lvl kind of thing. Some thing which im totally not proud of. As for my N lvls, i did well. Sometimes this is life. Shit do happens. There is no straight path to success. Only a handful of us can have this dont-worry-attitude of success. Cause they go the straight path and still excel. I envy them seriously. As i typed this, tears began rolling down my cheeks. Maybe it touched me real bad. What is it in me that lacks? May i know? Or is there a reason behind all my long-taken path? Which will shine its light later? But i need to know it now! I've had enough of all this nonsense. Why am i not born with the brain of a genius or somewhere close along that line? WHY?! Why make me suffer terribly now whereas the others are happily enjoying their life at the same age as i do? When can i have this kind of life back? Im yearning for it. Given my family status, i am happy. I got the things i want and so on. Thanks to my dad. But we are not those loaded people and never wish to be. But if it happens, im grateful for that. As long as im leaving here, i treat myself as the average joe. Why flaw yourself to others with wealth? Its not necessary. Always be low-key with everyone around you. You may never know who whould be better off than you. It really breaks my heart to see friends enjoying their life while im down here struggling with education life. Please put a stop to it. Seriously. You see me in person at school as the happy-go-lucky type but deep down im suffering. No one knows. I dont post this up for sympathy from all. This is my blog and i have the right to pour out any unhappiness. Read it you wish to know more about me. Simply cross the red X at the top right.
Later i and herrizal will be heading down to school for talk. We were cordially invited by mr lim to give talk to the sec 5. I am honoured to do that. So certificate and good grades does not guarantee everything i guess? It's the individual attitude and how you present yourself infront of others that counts. Still, not to forget those friends support and wishes for me. thanks a ton. =D
As for the 2nd half, about my gym plan. This is it. Given my free time now, i rather do something useful to myself than stoning infront of the computer for hours. So here's the plan. Me and herrizal will be hitting the gym often comes this wednesday onwards. It is 4x a week. Monday, wednesday, friday and sunday. Each session last for 2 hours. It would be at gombak stadium as there is a direct transport from here. Save on transportation cost as im jobless, so finance is kinda tight for myself. Dad never give me allowance already. Im all by myself now. I dont mind. Here is the routine. Monday would be all-hand exercise (bicep, tricep, wrist). Wednesday would be leg (calf, groin, hamstring). Friday would be front body (chest, abs). Sunday would be shoulder (deltoid, shoulder) and back muscle (wings). I give myself 5 months to see the transformation. Hopefully this time round it works as i have consulted professionals. haha. Lets all hope to see the haaziq from skinny-scrawny to beef-up muscular guy. Maybe 5 months is too short, extend it to 12 months! =D. The gruelling training starts this Wednesday and im game for it! This is the timetable for work out.
